My bi-annual check-in
Hello again, long time no see, as always....
Let's be honest. I'm a terribly inconsistent blogger. I know this, you know this, it's an unfortunate but indisputable fact. I have dreams of updating the blog every week and sending it out in this magical email newsletter... and then I blog about twice a year. *shrugs* I figure making things is more important in the long run, and a one-woman shop can only do so much!
In light of this admission about the pitfalls of trying to "do it all" when I have a family, another job, and a life, I'd like to share with you a Facebook post that I shared earlier this week on my page. Being open and honest is really important to me, and I hope that sharing my story will help give you some encouragement in your own life as well.
In case you can't read it, I'll include the full text here:
I'd like to take a moment to be real with you. Sometimes, being "successful" feels just as shiny, perfect, and joyful as it looks on the outside. You're doing what you love and you love what you're doing, and you never have to work a day in your life. That's why I love working in my shop -- because that's the kind of joy it brings me. But sometimes, being "successful" feels like an all-consuming tidal wave of stress that's threatening to crush you at any moment. Your success becomes a burden that both your mind and body become too overwhelmed to handle without help. I have always tried to steer clear of this kind of success, so that my shop would never take more joy from me than it gave back. For reasons I can't quite pin down, these past few months have been the latter kind of successful for me. My shop has taken off at such a galloping pace that I feel like I'm on a runaway horse, barely holding on for dear life. The joy that normally shines out of every moment in my shop has slowly eroded away as both my mind and body have seen the stress of my success take its punishing toll on them. These past few weeks, I've been trying to be very conscious about making time for self-care. I'm doing more yoga, going outside for walks (even during work time!), and taking more breaks to quiet my mind and just do nothing at all. I've started seeing a therapist to deal with my anxiety, and I've started taking medication to mitigate the debilitating physical symptoms of my stress. This struggle has been completely unexpected (fall is always my busy season but also my FAVORITE season for that very reason), but the length and severity of my struggle have been big enough that I feel the need to share it with you. Take it as a reminder that even people that look like they're "doing it all" can be struggling in ways you can't see on the outside. No one's life is perfect -- even (and especially) the ones that look that way on the outside. You may see things slow down a little bit in the shop, as I attempt to rein in some of the busyness that is running me so ragged. (And of course, you may not... even under all the stress, I do still *love* what I do, and it's hard to give it up, even a little bit! But I'm trying.) Be patient with me, show me some grace, and together I know we can make it through these unexpected "growing pains" until I can find the pure joy of my shop again. I can't wait to be back there with you again. ❤️ Emily